SIGH, there goes my driving license. If you're guessing, you're right. I failed my traffic police test today. Mann, S$150 goes down the drain just like that. The killing factor had to be the nervousness. Biggest joke; checking everything and moving off, forgetting the safety belt. :( Interestingly, a freak rain then came and it rained like never before the moment the car got out of the circuit, and stopped like it never rained when the car turned back in. Seriously, no exaggeration. Had to be a divine intervention telling me I'm so not ready to drive. On a lighter note, I have to agree.
Imagine if I had pass, I'll be taking the car to office every morning hence increasing the risk of an accident greatly, and each time that happens, there goes S$2k and the chance of not driving again. Boy, God, you really know what's best eh! Cause now, the next test date is 4th Oct, just when my attachment period ends. What can I say, its the nervousness I'll have to conquer this time!
Monday, July 30, 2007
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Series of Unfortunate Events
Life is known to have its ups and downs. If so, then I must probably be at my lowest right now. A series of unfortunate events occured and my moral and concentration on life's daily chores have taken a serious blow, something I guess only time can heal. At times like these I cry out to God in pain and desperation and ask 'why Father?!'... but many a time, his reasons are always beyond my human understanding.
I prayed hard that night, made phone calls hoping to hear good news but to no avail. I prayed that if He couldn't return me what was lost, at least to take away the pain from me. I lied in bed that night, with an emotion pain I had never felt before, full of anger and frustration, and for that moment, I could understand how many have had lost their faith in God or religion so easily. But even so, I am thankful to the holy spirit and dear mother Mary for keeping me that night.
Surprisingly enough, yesterday's sermon during mass seemed to be directly targeted at me and my thoughts. Awe stucked as I listen hard, Fr John Lau shared about how God never fails to listen to our prayers, but sometimes (or maybe most of the time) He just doesnt respond to us the way we expect them to be, because eventually He knows what's best for us, not what we assume to be. Yes, faith. Not what of the human mind can easily comprehend, but what the soul may embrace. After all, as it's said, 'What father is there among you, who, if his son asks for a slice of bread, will offer him a stone? or if he asks for a fish, will instead of a fish offer him a snake?' (Luke 11:11)
Easier said than done, I am still trying hard to understand many things life has revealed, but often its nice to take a step back and enjoy life one bit at a time, knowing that there's always an angel watching your back for you.
I prayed hard that night, made phone calls hoping to hear good news but to no avail. I prayed that if He couldn't return me what was lost, at least to take away the pain from me. I lied in bed that night, with an emotion pain I had never felt before, full of anger and frustration, and for that moment, I could understand how many have had lost their faith in God or religion so easily. But even so, I am thankful to the holy spirit and dear mother Mary for keeping me that night.
Surprisingly enough, yesterday's sermon during mass seemed to be directly targeted at me and my thoughts. Awe stucked as I listen hard, Fr John Lau shared about how God never fails to listen to our prayers, but sometimes (or maybe most of the time) He just doesnt respond to us the way we expect them to be, because eventually He knows what's best for us, not what we assume to be. Yes, faith. Not what of the human mind can easily comprehend, but what the soul may embrace. After all, as it's said, 'What father is there among you, who, if his son asks for a slice of bread, will offer him a stone? or if he asks for a fish, will instead of a fish offer him a snake?' (Luke 11:11)
Easier said than done, I am still trying hard to understand many things life has revealed, but often its nice to take a step back and enjoy life one bit at a time, knowing that there's always an angel watching your back for you.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
another farewell
Last night marked the farewell for another batch of fmssrcy NCOs, and also just as importantly, the handing over of leadership to yet another batch. Maybe it doesn't seem very much significant to many, but for those who have stayed with the unit for a long time, i'm sure it must have.
Personally, I never fail to be amused by how much these juniors have matured so quickly over a short span of time. From arragont brats (I wouldn't deny myself being one) to humble and respectable leaders, something that all of us owe to our seniors. As the unit's leadership gets passed down over time, its in the soul of these leaders I still find a little of Vincent Sir, Richard, my brother, Jing Yang, Johnathan, Poh Huat, Chanel, Fion and the many other devoted seniors who have moulded us to what we have become today.
Though they may not be seen around very often nowadays, their spirit has always remained in the unit. Each time an instruction, scolding or advice is given, a punishment implemented, and a planning taking place, its when they are there with us.
In any case, a job well done to the graduating ncos! Days ahead without you are going to be so different. New people and new problems to deal with, haha! But I believe new learning experiences too. Hope some of you guys will return as VIs then.
Cheers!
Personally, I never fail to be amused by how much these juniors have matured so quickly over a short span of time. From arragont brats (I wouldn't deny myself being one) to humble and respectable leaders, something that all of us owe to our seniors. As the unit's leadership gets passed down over time, its in the soul of these leaders I still find a little of Vincent Sir, Richard, my brother, Jing Yang, Johnathan, Poh Huat, Chanel, Fion and the many other devoted seniors who have moulded us to what we have become today.
Though they may not be seen around very often nowadays, their spirit has always remained in the unit. Each time an instruction, scolding or advice is given, a punishment implemented, and a planning taking place, its when they are there with us.
In any case, a job well done to the graduating ncos! Days ahead without you are going to be so different. New people and new problems to deal with, haha! But I believe new learning experiences too. Hope some of you guys will return as VIs then.
Cheers!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Projects!
Projects, projects, projects... they seem to be never ending. three down, two to go.
In any case, postings for internship was out today and my attached office is located at East Coast Road... shucks. Attachment period lasts from 27 Aug to 12 Oct. There goes my holidays. :(
In any case, postings for internship was out today and my attached office is located at East Coast Road... shucks. Attachment period lasts from 27 Aug to 12 Oct. There goes my holidays. :(
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